Thursday, August 07, 2003
i've done the most inane thing of my life, having wasted nearly 3 hours on uploading photos to an online photo album. For what it's worth, you can take a look at
nifty button huh.
it's early in the morning. 1.30am. i'd rather be sleeping, an attempt to return to my usual sleep cycle before the school term starts. But seriously, i've always been a morning person that means sleeping early, waking up early kinda routine. so why the exception this time around?
Beside the photo album, there's also the sudden urge to put the thoughts of today on paper... on screen. So this entry would not be so much for your reading pleasure, if that can be considered most tragic then i'm sorry. And thus, be forewarned that i might ramble and be incoherent. (just like roadblocks and potholes on a highway)
read the book of Genesis today. I picked up the bible late in the evening. Certainly not the norm for me because i try to do it first thing in the morning. However, throughout the entire day(-time) i'd been behaving like the prodigal son, not contented with God and running away to find fulfillment and entertainment else where. I was so freakin bored and had the last straw when my mum insisted i should stay at home for the notorious, infamous lemon chicken. If you ever see me roll my eyes when my dad is trying to invite everyone to eat lemon chicken, please understand that i eat this nearly once every week. And Everytime without exception when guests are coming to the house.
So prodigal girl went to town, spent sinful amount of money on coffee and fast food. Coming home, feeling guilty that i've neglected God the entire day. Coming back to Genesis. my excuses were making their way, sandwiching between me and bible. i felt tired. i felt bored *again*, irritable, tantrum-prone... But i managed to make it to the first verse and got stuck.
God made heaven and earth. But there's no mention of the process in which He made heaven. Were the details omitted because our puny mortal minds would not be able to comprehend anyway? Or, did God only speak when he made the earth but not Heaven? Thus, a reason why there is only the illustration of the creation of earth, and not heaven, is that only in the creation of earth do you see the working of the trinity of God clearly. God who thought and spoke the word (the word is christ Jesus) and the Spirit who manifested the work of the word.
i know that ah-huh moment wasn't that great. But did you know how wonderful it was to just sit still and think about the words and the sentences? Never have i sat so still, said and did so little... and enjoyed myself in the presence of God. That madame jean guyon book inspired me to do this. ok i might have spelt her name wrongly but i will check it up and confirm when i write again... At first when i read what she wrote, i thought it was too spiritual - as in it sounded too spooky and little risky to do what she seemed to be encouraging in her words..
and there was so much more. i could only get to the fourth day (hmm i think. first was day and night. second was atmosphere and water. third was sea and land) when God made fruits and seeds. The first day that God had created night and day was amazing to me! SO incredibly mind blowing. why He made night and day first in the whole sequence of events is worth thinking about. My take on the significance of day and night is that day and night is a metaphor for time. Remember, he had not created the sun i think (that comes on the fifth day? haven't gotten that far...) He created the first cycle of time. When day turns into night, there is one cycle and it carries you forward into time. I think that there was only the concept of eternity but then God created time. It is only in this section of verses that the bible mentioned that the first day had passed. The first day had not passed when the earth was formed and it was empty; the spirit hovering over the waters. By the end of the first day, there was a past , a present and a future. And God is in the present, in the now. So our actions at the moment, in the present matter to Him and thus the concept of repenting before him can be worked out. "If you hear the voice of the Lord today", repent... I also doubt He had to plan ahead when He created earth...
when on the 2nd day He separated the water of the expanse from that below, the thought that came into my mind was dimensions. foremost is Height and Depth. When speaking of dimensions especially Height and Depth, i'm reminded of God's love as described by Paul, David (psalms). Could Height and Depth also hint of the creation of gravity? ok that's just a sudden thought i had. I just sat and thought about God's love...
