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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

i thought what my dear friend wrote in response to my email was such an eyeopener for me. There is a reason for forgetfulness. Thank God!

Juliet wrote:

Dear saints,

Hi everyone. first of all a big thankyou to Karen for inviting the
rest of us to this group.. at last! Karen, i still can't check who's
in the group as there seems to be no "members" link on left hand
side. if xinwen is not in the list, please add her in.
xinwen: blahblahblah@hotmail.com

Also, wanna just remind all who have compiled prayer pointers over
the last few months and last year to upload them to the group.

You might think it strange that i'm posting this message on a friday
night at 7 plus. you know why? i have lost my wallet again!! i woke
up this morning, preparing to go to the convention and searched for
my wallet but can't find it! sigh.. this is most embarassing
especially at 24 years old... i dont think i misplaced it outside
becoz i remember very clearly that i took it out of my bag to open
my house door. i prayed in desperation for God to miraculously bring
my wallet back. Well, even if i dont get my wallet back, i still
thank God for giving me the time and opportunity to fellowship with
Him even at home. So till we meet again next week...

many blessings and love,
juliet

HI Juliet

No problems. You know what I also lost my wallet on the day before convention started. I knew it was not lost, but I had to resort to cancelling some of my credit cards which I should have long ago. In the end, I found my wallet and I informed for the cards to be cancelled. It worked out for good. I don't need too many cards anyway, except that they are useful for travel and it was one way which the Lord spoke to me to simplify my life.

We become forgetful when we are cluttered with too many things. Think about it.

Blessings
Karen

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Wednesday, March 16, 2005

romeo and juliet. the more i seem to know about it, the more it seems to boil down to just glorious adolescent angst. my students are going to have a field day at my expense with this book..

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oh dear. still a technical klutz. anyway, this is the wedding picture. i do not like wedding gowns of the style that the beautiful bride has adopted. im sick and tired of the can can flare the dress has. some of u already know that i've gone ahead and chosen a white cheongsum for my wedding gown. unfortunately but not unexpected, i faced some opposition.. most notably from my mo-inlaw who didnt want to take the gamble on my cheongsum gown and lose face.. She threatened the two of us that if this happened, she will confront my hubby and give him a lashing like never before.

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Lovely wedding of one of my church friends. Well if you've ever wondered what my church looks like, this will be a so-so pix of the front stage. The flags on the left of pix represent the nations our church is praying for and involved in one way or another through mission work etc. The other 2 pix... is me rotting away at Liat Towers Starbucks. Somehow, i've lost the pleasure of sipping on a cup of coffee. my mind is plagued by worries that the caffeine is ruining my health, my cramps are going to get worse blah blah blah.. oh and the price of the drink is burning a hole in my pocket too. sigh... reading R&J as will be teaching it next term. tt's about it. I'm on my one week school break but i've got tons of things to do!! betta scramble off..

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Monday, March 14, 2005

what flavor pocky are you?

[c] sugardew

hehe. nice quiz from lushdesert. mmm. making me hungry

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Monday, March 07, 2005

i can feel it in my aching bones... this week is going to be a better week for the following reasons:
1. All the sec threes are attending some adventure camp from mon to wed so that gives me a lot of time to plan and prepare my lessons. That also means i have only one class to teach from monday to wednesday.
2. In my slump cum depressive state, i was reminded by God that wherever He has placed me, i am to see that place as a part of my eternal inheritance and not "eternal" torment. Psalm16:6 The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places; Yes, I have a good inheritance
3. Somehow, also hearing this news perks me up. recently, there seemed to be a spiritual attack on a particular student in this school and according to the experienced teachers, this is not an unusual case as cases like these also happen in other neighbourhood schools. Shall not name names here. Strangely to me this was sort of comforting news. Its not just that the students are being malicious or rebellious as and when they feel like it but there is also a spiritual dimension that influences/encourages such behaviour. When i heard and realised that, i was at first perturbed. But as i mulled over it while walking home and taking my shower, i realise that there is something i can do to change this. Psalm 18:29, 33-34

For by You I can run against a troop,
By my God I can leap over a wall...
He makes my feet like the feet of deer,
And sets me on my high places.
He teaches my hands to make war,
So that my arms can bend a bow of bronze.

I'm not going to become some exorcist but i know i have nothing to fear, nothing to lose, everything to gain as i begin to cover the school in prayer.

So there you go. Despite my bones aching (always a sign that my immune system is really low), i am strengthened by the hope that is in my God.

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Sunday, March 06, 2005

trouble in love land again. its been a long time since a kiss has really thrilled me. And what's even more pathetic is that i only realised this when i was watching the movie "hitch". the reasons for why we've ended up in this state... could be that the both of us are so stressed up with work, distracted by a thousand and one things... We are still best buddies and we both know that we love each other. Maybe im just incredibly needy and clingy, always wanting one more hug, one more kiss.

I just want more time for us to be together, to enjoy each other's company without it being adulterated by our gadgets, by our different hobbies... I want time for us to actually be still and be intimate without rushing into the next item or any hindrance caused by our anxieties.

i really miss my babes. But for the last few months, i can't believe that i was not even aware of the lack of intimacy between us. Im not talking abt a romp in bed but im talking perhaps abt rather girly affections like giving and receiving kisses, holding hands and enjoying a romantic moment.

i miss him so much. but everytime, i try to tell him what it is i want exactly (coz sometimes as a man, he just doesn't understand the way i tick), i end up doing two things. One is i tell him what i want but when he does not succeed, i dnt have the heart to tell him that he hasn't and to try again. Two is i don't tell him at all coz i am afraid that once again, he can't give me what i will like to have.

hmm. but enough of me. i'll be praying for him everyday. I know my marriage date is coming soon and it sucks to feel like this at the moment. i think i'll be able to snap out of it. Already, i think what i've just described in all those paragraphs was more of a pursuit after a certain feeling rather than a person. Perhaps i need a paradigm shift on my concept of love. And perhaps, i dnt love my babes as much as i thought i did. Btw, dnt ask me again if i'm excited abt my wedding or not. my plate is already full as it stands. im just glad things are falling into place rather easily and effortlessly. That's all i will say for now.

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Thursday, March 03, 2005

i think there's gonna be more depressing posts on this blog at least for this month or so. i feel completely overwhelmed in this job. I have never been so flustered, out of sync and completely floored, humbled in my entire life. Sure, there have been times in my life where i've felt that i was way beyond my league, outstretched and incapacitated. But the thought never ever came to my mind that I would not make it through, that I would never find a solution because... i had always been able to.

So you can guess. Yup. Like they say there's always a first time for all things. And for the very first time, I am utterly clueless and weakened by a class of teenagers, by a job that makes me work more than 12 hours a day with less than 6 hrs of sleep and still expects me to give my best. Like i told my fellow training teacher and i say it again... i need help.

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