Wednesday, December 08, 2004
hmm.. don't really know how to tie up the weeks that have gone by. well, never hurts to do a good ole bullet list when all thinking fails.
1. Date 5th December Sunday
It hit me as the most ironic moment. One moment we were moved by the speaker in church about holiness and purity and the next moment right after that, at the escalator running down from the church doors, people are calling their friends to catch a movie. Now personally, I think movies are not always evil but most of the time, i admit that they do distract us from God. As in 1John2:15,
Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him.
I understand movies to be a part of our culture, our world, the world that is radically different from the spirit and that the words in this verse is meant to be taken literally. That is, if I replace the word "world" for "movies", I believe that I do not stray away from the truth. However, I believe that in regards to the decision of watching a movie or not, one cannot simply impose rules on people or quickly arrive at the conclusion that watching movies is sin. But after such a message, I earnestly wanted to spend some time alone to understand what I have heard, reflect upon my life and earnestly seek the Lord to show me how to go on from here. And not rush to the next movie, the next food joint, the next item on my itinerary and catalogue the sacred into just a "moment" and relegate it into the background noise.
Simply hearing a good sermon does not save one's soul.
2. Date: currently ongoing. commenced on 14th Dec, the day i returned from bkk.
I'm also beginning to plan for my wedding next year. I would tell you the details if you're interested but not on my blog. haha, i think it's too trivial. My friends are more excited about my wedding than I am. I am truly looking forward to spending the rest of my life with hannon. But the in between preparations are so tedious! And planning is never my forte.
3. Date: Today 8th december
I've been attending a slew of church conferences the last week or so. What happened during those conferences? I am still trying to put the pieces together. There are so many thoughts running through my mind. I have also just returned from a prayer meeting with my varsity leader and another friend of mine. Nearly most of my thoughts remain quite foggy, barely an impression that ceaselessly troubles my heart and overwhelms my thinking faculties time and again. Whenever I try to sift through them and seek understanding, whether it be by articulating it to the most unsuspecting victim or in my diary, my purple pen poised above the blank pages in that moment of sudden determination, I will suddenly become awkward. And the words that I speak or write become cliche, its meaning verring left and right, whirling out of control. I wish i can say that there is a method to my madness but sadly I can't. I'm simply confused.
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