Friday, February 20, 2004
right now with all the workload ahead of me, i'm beginning to procrastinate. finished my dante essay and today's afternoon slots are reserved to clear baggage of church work and finish reading blake's background. but i'm having a headache right now... will have to somehow get to it but i wonder how. hmm..
had a restorative sleep last night after mugging till 5 plus the night before that. i dreamt of.. shopping! hehe. i had a craving for shopping yesterday but it has been "satisfied" for awhile. haha.
this morning woke up and had my quiet time with God. felt bad that i had resolved to do it last night but i stoned again in front of the tv, sister came back for dinner and we chatted happily away till i could not open my eyes anymore. QT was excellent. I'm beginning to see parallelisms with the stuff regarding my supervisor and the things that God is dealing with me. This season seems to be about getting one's hands dirty, coming up face to face with a lot of personal issues that have been dealt with before but never fully resolved. There are times when thoughts come to my mind that God is unfair and unnecessarily harsh but they're just the result of desperate and frustrated moments. When things do come to their bare essence, the Truth always prevails.
It takes time... alot of waiting and being still... to see how God's justice and truth prevails. I'm beginning to understand that especially when i see hannon. very often he gets really frustrated with his bosses coz they're scolding him for wrongs he has never done most of the time, but he restraints his anger. that's not a very easy thing for him to do as he used to speak up against his previous bosses. But the restraining has done him good. I believe that he is beginning to ask God to help him even in controlling his anger. That's great! now it's my turn to do the same thing i guess. the progress of my thesis is not going well. it's so easy to get depressed with all the pressure, giving in to the stress. but i don't want to give in and the holy spirit is always there for guidance.
there may not be much time left for me. i've only about 3 weeks left to churn out the thesis. But it's work and trust or work and sink.
already, i can't wait till this whole sem is over. i was at the woodlands library, having travelled there to borrow purgatory, and there are sooo many books there that i want to read! what happiness! i can envision coffee or tea, or even the east coast park with an amazing book in hand. i can imagine if God wills so, going on a holiday... visiting my friend in melbourne. walking the streets, going to the museums. falling in love with the library there... :) maybe take a train ride to perth and visit our church branch there. fremantle would be beautiful.... haha!
Now work doesn't seem so bad.
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