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Monday, February 02, 2004

have been slugged by my sup about my intro chapter. lacking in focus, ideas and thoughts all over the place... in the process of criticising my work, it became a personal matter and i was subsequently called immature and naive: for thinking i could juggle multiple ideas and refusing to be focused. "In the real world, we have deadlines and we need to focus."

alright dr Goh. i get it. had to take a whole day to "focus" (there's that stinking word again) on what were the constructive bits and what were the totally irrelevant, hurting, mean stinging stuff that stuck to me like a splinter. i can say that i'm doing much better now. if i make it through this shit, i would say it would be a landmark in my life, a point of hopefully emotional/intellectual growth and not retardation. But one thing good about this whole episode was the support i got and all the gooey care and concern that soothed the hurt. gummies (one of the fav.sweets of all time) from Dawn who was kind enough to sit and listen to me rant and rave about dr Goh, just after the supervision session that day. i can't get the gummies out of my mind! they were the best. succulent, juicy, plump and chewy! alright..

then there's my babes who basically had to hear all the emo shit that no one else would hear and that i'm also too embarassed to tell. then the surprise came from dad who was rather empathetic as he admitted that he had the same problem as me: too many ideas and wanting to get ahead of the game prematurely.

i guess i'm thankful. but i'll be even more thankful if i can get my focus! *hint to the Almighty*

the goal is to churn out the new and improved version by this week before i start on the Dante essay and prepare for the 18th century essay too. hope you guys out there are surviving. just 2 more months...

posted by happyhannon at 9:35 PM