Thursday, January 30, 2003
i think its uncanny, that everyone i know who likes poetry lists sylvia plath as one of their favorites. well she was my fav. when i was in jc but not anymore because she gets alittle morbid and psycho. But now i must say .. time for confession.. that neruda used to be my fav.. i wonder where i'm heading too. my psalms are my comfort-food (term coined by len), Heaney for mental stimulation.. anyone's got any recommendations.
Im reading Heaney's "Seeing things" and must say that after understanding what he's trying to say, it aint nothing much. Don't you hate it when in front of you a poem lies and when you get pass the stage of rapture and fascination, pass the level of naivety and understanding, that there is nothing left? You admire the style, ingenuity at first but when you begin to see the bigger picture, how like one poem connects to another, what the poems are made up of... doesn't it then just bore you..
me? yeah. maybe i'm becoming prosaic. what is the value of poetry? what is its value when we have prose, paintings, images and the internet? what is poetry compared to all these. can each poem teach us something different from what we already know through our long tedious experience with numerous institutions?
i'm seriously doubting the extent to which the claims poetry makes can be justified. hmm..
anyway today i'm watching "waterboy" the japanese swimming movie at my boyfriend's house. last night my bf came home quite late and he called me on my hph. i was asleep then and guess what.. i dnt remember picking up the phone at all. yeah, all i remember from last night was, i think... he was whining and worrying about his job and i think i cldn't take it so i started screaming and shouting that i wanted to sleep and i had no time for all this sh!t ... sigh... sometimes i really wonder what's under this skin/facade of what i am putting on so i can stop giving myself all these nasty surprises. Another thing is that i've ever sleepwalked before when i was young. In a report i read, the experts say that sleep walk is caused by stress and other factors that i don't recall. It is most frequent among 8 year olds.
and i'm 21 going onto 22...
