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Monday, July 08, 2002

i'm a little tired. but once again, on those rampaging moods that linger near self-destructive capabilities but... i don't want to do that. i knw i got you jesus. it's just sometimes too over-whelming you know. my parents. the way my dad is. the way my mum hurts. i know i'm on my stacey kent drip, but sometimes the pain won't stop .. for a long time... or until i get off from this and just cry and .. pray... and it's wierd but there's peace and contentment in that. there's no other way it seems to jump off this bridge. this railway track with the train running smack into you.
so i'm jumping off now. but before i do that,
the one thing that really made me laugh today, happily and unconsciously. genuine happy you know. i do'nt know how to make this sound better.
my bf told me trust in God and that he's my source of strength at the end of the day. that everyone's got problems and he's the one that can pull us through at the end of it all.
for those you know who's my bf, what do you think?. :)

ok jumping off now. no procrastination.

posted by happyhannon at 11:46 PM