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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
woah.. panda eyes going to work now. woke up at 315am. marked till 545am. took a shower. more marking. saying goodbye at 615am.
S'wonderful.Labels: peanut facts
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
gonna talk about the weather so if you have no stomach for such things, you are free to skip this post and go on to do more worthwhile things.
but i'm going to talk about the weather here in Singapore and more specifically from the perspective of someone who lives in the north, in an area that was once all kampong, pig farms and gutters but now polished sanitised high rise buildings and neon blink-blink lights of a shopping mall..
today everything was in bright vivid primary colours. yellows, blues, greens. oops one of them aint a primary colour. But (who cares), for me it's been the longest time since i actually slowed down my pace and just admired the abundance of light that flooded the cross junction adjacent to the mrt tracks. it was literally the flooding of lights that made the objects on the road, the people walking, the buildings... just standing... all stand out from each other with such vivacity. The heat of the early afternoon sun was shielded by a blanket of clouds on the western horizon, leaving the eastern terrifically blue. Good weather, excellent humidity, cooling breeze. I don't know how God does it. I felt like i could walk on forever and just enjoy the afternoon that was laid out before me.
As i admired the scene before me, i realised that my thoughts no longer were weighed down by the impending demands of work or unexpected twists from a hit broadway called "school days". School is out by the way and students are having a one month break. Although i've been waking up early to return to school for consultations with students, i don't dread it. I can't wait to wake up early and see the sun already risen, the sky just turning its coat of colours over. More so, I can't wait to leave and walk under the shade of the trees, enjoying the wind and inspecting the colours while i wait for the traffic light to change. Just feeling the ground change under my slippers as i walk across grass, dirt tracks, concrete pavements is quite thrilling. I often go out in the evening on the pretext to buy groceries to just leave my house and smell the breeze.
you know the other night, as i was taking the trash out of my house.. the sweetest smell wafted through my corridors (and it was certainly not my neighbour's garbage). my apartment faces an isolated stretch of round lined with very tall trees that scale a little hill rising alongside with the road. The sweetest smell... i think to myself that this can only be frangipanis. I've never smelt anything like it before. It could have come from the neighbours' house. Afterall, malay homes always have a different smell. No racist undertones here. An Indian household with the lingering smell of spices could be heart-warming to certain individuals and if i stayed long enough in such a place, i'm sure i'll be of the same mind. But coming back to the sweetest smell, it didn't matter where it came from but it was simply a gift from God even if it came from someone's cooking pot. I called to mr yim to come out of the house and smell. He most probably thought i was mad but too bad for him.
i think it is in every place i travel to, i try to be open to such moments like these. And i would consider a vacation to be excellentand thoroughly well spent if i have moments like these? Haha. Yah and it's not just about the shopping and food mind you although they're still ermm rather important.
It's the simplest mundane things that capture our hearts. I wish the government could just understand that instead of mass manufacturing national education and drumming it in our heads. There's no other sky like this in all the world. There's no other smell, no other time, no other place.Labels: peanut facts
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
You Are Fossil Fuel Ice Cream What does liking "fudge dinosaurs" say about someone? Labels: peanut facts
oh crappers. there is some inane expression to say "you are in deep shit" but i've forgotten what it is.. was it "my goose is cooked"??? how interesting it will be to have a book of such inane expressions and their origins. I've set my eyes on this book on hypochondria.. excellent reading material for my sister who's a little phobic about germs ... it gives an excellent case for being hypochon and not, in a very twisted and humorous manner.
so i've got tons of marking to do and i'm writing my blog entry and changing my template.. wonderful. I will give a better update on what's been happening but only later.. suffice to say that i enjoyed my hk wedding anniversary trip- the shopping was exhilarating. more when i'm done with marking, cooking my goose etc.Labels: peanut facts
Monday, May 01, 2006
my husband is taking his afternoon naps. I'm afraid afternoon naps just don't work for me. I'm much too tense with the many things on my mind that i have to do. I'm not particularly stressful person. I just want to spend the afternoon doing things that i normally don't have time to do. Like updating my blog, doing my laundry, reading a book, praying and singing... the little things that make me happy.
i resolve to take much better photos when i go to hongkong with my hubby to celebrate our one year wedding anniversary. Just was commenting to my friend about the trip and when she told me she always thought my wedding was in the second half of the year, i wanted to say that i understood that very well.. one year just goes by so quickly.
Anyway, back to photos. i want to take better photos in the sense that i want to be able to slow down in the midst of rushing from one place to another, to just take a step back and take a picture. Oftentimes when i have the camera, i often feel hurried and rushed to take that one shot. That one moment passes by so fleetingly that the time the camera takes to charge up and the time needed to get the right angle for the shot.. before you know it. You have already lost half of what you felt at that moment and the moment is already past; a desire to relive it lingers but frustration is often the end result; It feels like you are left to deal with a parcel that has landed on your doorstep, addressed to the wrong person but with no means to return it.
So i often leave my camera alone and enjoy the moments: light glazing the surfaces of the building painting an empty canvas with a sheen of gold. tree tops that rustle as the wind blows, in an almost stark contrast to the static slabs of steel and glass rising out of the earth. passing by a lake that almost seems to flow from beneath your feet as you precariously balance yourself among squashed and anonymous bodies in a train; it engulfs the land, quenching the dulled senses of surburbia.Labels: peanut facts
Sunday, April 02, 2006
ok here's perhaps a standard reply to the question "how are you?" that i've been getting quite often..
- i'm fine but still have this lingering flu bug that keeps coming back. now i'm on my hubby's medication.
- school work has officially taken off and is in full flight. i'm preparing for lessons, lectures, cca meetings. busy busy busy but i'm of the belief that my life will not be just about work so i'm also attending church meetings and now, i'm considering serving in the church ministry as they need help for the third service
- I'm sincerely apologetic that i've been rather uncontactable by my close friends. I'll make the effort to breach the gap between us once i've more or less settled down with work. That's a promise that i'll like to keep and i can't wait to see and hear what you have been doing too. i've been reading your blogs, emails and smses regularly.
- today i bought two antique envelopes with strange stamps on them for 3 dollars. I plan to place it at my work station. Keep a look out!
- i am still not in the mood or in the habit of writing even in my own personal diary. And it's not because nothing is happening in my life. This inertia i can't explain but if you can i'll like to hear about it.
- I've just finished reading brian bailey's kings of judah. I should be listening to his zion convention sermons.
- I'm still wondering about the china mission trip.
- My husband and I are happy living together and managing our house. We had a good talk about the other day how we've become too busy sometimes that we tend to ignore each other and slip off into our own worlds. He suggested that whenever one of us came back later than the other, the late-coming party should hug and kiss the one who's home immediately. heee... he's just sweet that way.
- I wonder if my students have found my blog yet. I've found some of theirs already. The other night i dreamt that some strange person linked my blog to his/hers. I woke up and felt rather disturbed by the whole scenario. Then turned on the air con, switched off the fan and felt much better.
- Lately, found out that my church mate's father works as a coast guard. And couldn't help being envious of this man who could take off to sea every day. It would be great to sail and man one of those huge yachts on an ocean someday.
~the end~
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Monday, May 06, 2002
i created this blooger booger yesterday and i did add an entry then... suddenly my friend called me up and he wanted to discuss the play that i wrote/direct. i think criticism is refreshing and generally wholesome but there's the inner you that always cringes at it. I got a little sad and i could only talk to my bf over the phone about it for 5 minutes only (coz it was rather late then and he had to book in reservist training early the next day). i spent 15 minutes on my bed just praying till i fell asleep....
and amazingly i had a really great sleep. :)
i'm a little bonk out right now coz i'm having my first red-letter day. another amazing trivia for you.. i don't have any cramps!! aiyeehaa! :) must be the vigorous swimming at my grandma's place that helped. right now, i'm itching to listen to stacey kent that my bf bought for me... i'll maybe return at night to add another entry... coz i'm itching to write alot of things but i'll take it bit by bit.
i think since i'm itching so much maybe i shld go take a bath right now.. ;)Labels: peanut facts
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